IDK

today i've asked myself a question:
what am i actually thinking?

everyday sitting in da corner and tot myself as a useless person
because i did nothing!
I just sat there and doing nothing.
yes maybe dreaming,thinking and idk nothing at all.
holly crap.
I told myself that this kind of lifestyle not belong to me.
I tot i have an official permanent job would be fun and busy but NO
it is not enough..
this kind of schedule is not suppose to be fill in my timetable
I want to be super duper busy and keep doing things not sitting at there
doing nothing to get pay.
There's something wrong and to be honest
it is so
BORING & USELESS

should provide time to move on
but when?
when is the right time?
IDK