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Focus

2012-01-02T06:48:00.001-08:00

We don't need to focus on what we don't want it to be happen. Focus on what we do want to be happen. Positive thinking is always a great success of story.

If we awake every morning with the thought that something wonderful will happen in our life today, and we pay close attention, we will often find that we r right.

Tears

2011-12-12T04:42:00.000-08:00

We don't need to act like everything is fine if it isn't. Don't need to pretend to be strong when u sad, don't need to prove to people that u r fine when u r not or concern on what they r thinking. Cry if u need to, it's healthy though to just shed the tears. The sooner u do, the sooner u will be able to smile again :)

Fight for it

2011-11-20T09:40:00.000-08:00

Don't let others bring u down to their level

Refuse others to lower your standards

challenge yourself not others

2011-11-14T02:32:00.000-08:00

Dont worry abt what others doing better than u!

Concentrate on beating your own records every day. Success is a battle between u and yourself only.

Ready or not?

2011-11-10T06:27:00.000-08:00

Nobody ever feels 100% ready when an opportunity arises. Because most great opportunities in life force us to grow beyond our comfort zones, which means we wont feel totally comfotable at first.

stop complaining!

2011-11-05T16:56:00.000-07:00

Let everyone know that today u are a lot stronger than u were yesterday, and u will be!

Everything happens for a reason, u may not see or understand all in once and it may be tough to face it. But reflect back on those negative though in the past, u will see eventually it led u to a better place, person, state of mind, or situation.

Jealousy?

2011-10-24T19:34:00.000-07:00

Jealousy is the art of counting someone else's blessings instead of your own.

Ask yourself this : "What's something I have that everyone wants?"

Mistake

2011-10-02T04:44:00.000-07:00

Doing something and getting it wrong is at least ten times more productive than doing nothing. Every success has a trail of failures behind it, and every failure is leading towards success. You end up regretting the things you did not do far more than the things that you did.

Stop putting your own needs on the back burner

2011-09-28T13:17:00.000-07:00

The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that your are special too.

Yes, help others ; but help yourself too. If there was ever a moment to follow your passion and do something that matters to you, that moment is now.

Stop lying to yourself

2011-05-09T06:18:00.000-07:00

You can lie to anyone else in the world, but you cant lie to yourself. Our lives improve only when we take chances, and the first and most difficult chance we can take is to be honest with ourselves.

Regret

2011-04-26T09:26:00.000-07:00

Some people say education and the growing process needs to improve. In my opinion, I am totally agree on this statement and I am willing to diplomatic about it. A person I knew since last year, whatever he did and if he willing to make amends, I will gladly reach out. But what I felt right now was I can't look like an idiot. Now, he try to ruin his own image and everyone do admitted that he is kind of terror person. "Going out of my way just to be a nice guy and get burned to the floor".
Not an educated person and his mindset is not mature at all, trying to create a big fool of me and pretend and even make a terrible mess. Well, if he is trying to do like that, just do it no one will believe it and he just trying to ruin his own reputation. That is such life happen among my life right now. Somehow, I do regret on how I look into a person and I should know how to love myself better than trust others. I have never regretted any friendships I have had, even though I've had some with people who turned out to not be real friends at all. There were still good points about them, which is why I liked them in the first place, though it did hurt a bit cutting ties with them. Sometimes, we did something but this is the way you treat yourself but not under someone control. We should be a person whom listen and let go. Not to "add salt and vinegar" to spoil yourself. I am terribly hate myself of being so trustful to him, he losing his own reputation and I dont really want to care a lot on how to destroy him or revenge back. It's useless because I know if you did not do it, dont scare to look back or front. I really dont mind that he involve in my life, soon I hope you will disappear but as soon as possible please. Know what......You're SUCK!

Seriously injured

2011-04-22T02:28:00.000-07:00

Taking advantage of the night not to leave you before dawn
You were very sweet to sleep also
I have noticed a painstaking
Is to not let you escape your own
Maybe I was not enough capacity to completely forget you
At least I know right away when
I seriously wounded longing for love is no longer
Always put the hand grip
Retain only the shortage of soil
I was seriously injured left side just kind of treatment
Let go of the coast to escape the sad
Unfortunately, the prescription did not find blind
Stay one minute more than a minute the pain
I learned how to forget
Just a minute release from the pain
Do not have to hurt other people

Good Friday!

2011-04-21T22:06:00.000-07:00

Hi people,
do you ever ask yourself why Christians celebrate Good Friday and Easter?
= One of the first thing s that may come to your mind about Easter are rabbits & colourful eggs but Easter has nothing to do with rabbits and eggs.
Well, Good Friday is actually celebrate to remember the day when Jesus Christ, the son of God died on the cross for everyone.
When he hung on the cross, he took away all the wrong things we have done and forgive is for doing it. So that we can go to heaven.
God is a God who cannot tolerate sin so, someone must suffer in our place for the sin that we have committed. God loves us so much that he sent his own son to die and suffer our punishment.
That is why we celebrate Good Friday, to remember and to be thankful for what God and Jesus has done for us.
Jesus died on Good Friday but he rose up from the dead on Easter. And that is why we celebrate Easter, to remember that God has won over death. That death cannot win because own God is more powerful than death and promises all those who trust in him will have eternal life will not have to fear death.
So you see, Good Friday and Easter is a story on how much God loves each and everyone of us including you. He died so that your sins might be forgiven and that you may have eternal life as well. All you have to do to accept him and his gift of eternal life is to belief in him and receive him into your life as saviour and Lord.
God is a God of love. He will not reject you because you have failed or because you have rejected him before. He will accept you for who you are because he loves you enough to die in your place.
Just call out to him and ask him to reveal himself to you that you might know him not just because you were convinced by anyone else. But because you have met him yourself and you know that he is real.
If you chase to accept him or want to ask him to reveal himself to you, just pray. Pray like you were talking to a friend. It does not matter what language you use because he will understand you. And after you have prayed, you use your prayer with "in Jesus' name "Amen".
It is also alright if you choose not to trust in him or you are not ready for him because he gives is the freedom to choose. But you will truly blessed if you put your trust in him because he is the one true God who can save us from the flames of Hell and grant is eternal life with him.
And remember this, no matter what, God loves you.

-Honestly, I dont believe in God but after I heard of this story about Good Friday, I try to accept it and I can feel his spirit, as i use to pray when I'm in a difficult situation, it works! I hope that everyone after read this, will have the same mind. God always forgives us, so do we need to forgives people among people, because we meet each other is a fate that God plan for us. We just live life once, there's no other chances to have such lucky life which all of us living right now. Because of a small matter argue or rebel or whatever, Why dont we just live peace and dont bother about it? People, please start to think twice of everything you did, those hatred.... just forget it.

Peace ^___^

oh I feel fresh ... ^^

2011-04-21T12:13:00.000-07:00

currently addicted to sports such as badminton , swimming , jogging , etc... I feel great that I have a bunch of college friends who are so active and sporting. Their attitude is good and easily to mingle around, and as you know I am not a person who easily get into a status. They know me very well and we could spend our daily time just for a few activities not only sports but a lot of stupid things! Oh how I wish I could be with them for longer and longer.... Well, not only them but some of my friends whom I less keep in touch, they dated me out for some occasion and we get to know each other better as well. If I hate you, I wont be talking with you and try to ignore you so badly *please stay away from me* ishhh... perhaps I did changed myself. I am not longer the person whom you guys knew since last time because I try to change my style, my personalities, my attitudes, opinion, interest and lots lots more! Soon old Theresa will disappear. But as usual, I fill in my timetable as full as I can so that I could ignore some shitty stuff in my mind. I do not want to think of negative stuff... Is is not worthy to spoil my brain and stuck useless thing to overload my brain, pity my brain too... So, the important thing is stay happily and appreciate everything u got. I am a student + part timer, I am not as lucky as others, I need to earn a lot of pocket money for my daily expenses. It is not as easy as everyone think.... Sometimes I do suffering from all these but luckily I still under control ;) I looked up in the sky and wondering if the money would fall down :P well, it just a daydream for me. I don't mind every changes happens in my life for example ; friends , friends come and then go *easy come easy go* sometimes is the time we should blame, sometimes is the attitude we should change, sometimes is the manner we should behave, etc. I dont mind, I know I am not a good communicator, I admit I hate the way I communicate with friends because I am a straight forward person, unless you want me to lie you then it is fine *LLOLX* So do, I did a stupid thing just now because suddenly I think of some stupid stuff again... I cant blame my brain automatically appears those imagination yet I tried to cut it off. Although I do not have much friends but I feel lucky to have few, just few. If you hate gossips, so dont you try to gossips other instead of remind yourself that u hate it too. It is so useless to say that "I hate gossips".... *It is not fun AT ALL *LMAO*
oh ya, final exam is rising toward and I have not prepared yet, am still dreaming and having fun *slap myself*

who the hell you are, please stop fuxking text me and order me this and that! ishh you're so fuxking annoying...

:)

2011-04-18T01:38:00.000-07:00

I am not strong, whatever you want to say just say but remember... you will deserve a worst luck. I did anything I will admit, I say anything is true. If you want to compare neither exchange the relationship, u wish... Everyone needs a break so do I and I still need to continue my life. Live good man.... U are so horrible and disgusting.

It is not worth to cry and sad again. I push myself not to think it anymore. I always tell my close friend to beware and becareful of those shity guy, and you know what, if you love a person and you did something that you think it is worth, please do it. But if it is not, PLEASE dont ever do it. It is useless and stupid. Don't let a person control you. You have to know yourself and what to do or not. The choices is yours.... so please appreciate the chance. You know what, a person that I knew from the beginning stolen alot of things from me, all back to zero but...... I don't mind. Soon we will see the sunrise ;)
Please mind your own business.

他说，你说

2011-04-16T09:41:00.001-07:00

填好和坏的，analyse到底值不值得和他在一起...如果好的多，那就在一起吧！

每当A见到你在同一个环境都和你说一样的话...
其实A说的是真心话吗？
嘿~

B忘了对我说过的话
隔天,
当没事发生
>.<

现在什么人都有
真假傻傻分不清楚
太恐怖了~

所以说，
女人呀....
要学会精英，不要输在男人的手掌里

虽然，
当女人遇到爱的时候
会深深地投入甚至失去最珍贵的东西

当遇到这种情况就要用那一个analyse了
心里才会平衡一些。。。

女人，
要做值得的事
要思考...
请记得
“全部都接受，全部都不可以”
这个是某某很有经验的人说的
还蛮有意思

也许我会说无聊的话
也许我会说不应该说的话
也许我会说好听的话
都是希望我的心里
会平衡

告诉自己，
年轻人就不应该有那么多烦恼....
别想了，好好休息

na na na ;)

2011-04-14T07:03:00.000-07:00

oh no, i am so craving to go Bangkok so much. I found out that more than half of my friends went there and grab a lot of nice and cheap stuff! Most stuff at there are not bad such as accessories , clothing , bags , shoes and much more! I will definitely appreciate the chance.

I've booked the flight ticket which is on 9th of May, 6D5N. Not only flight, but tour and hotel with some of my friends. I can't wait for my semester break. And yeah, my semester break, for almost one month! It is driving me crazy.... Not just travel and have fun but I will work whenever I got time. For sure, have to earn more pocket money during this golden time...

Hope my college friends enjoy their sem break too and we're planning to go Port Dickson and everything is under KIV. woops.... *need to reschedule everything for sem break :D
Another good news... My birthday. Hmm.... I wish....

oh yeah, I just came back from swimming. Kinda fun especially with college friends and also the environment next week Broga hill/watch sunset? :D excited!

A little thing about me :)

2011-04-13T21:14:00.001-07:00

If u understand me, u will know that actually I am a person whom know how to adapt in a situation or with a person. But the thing is, I am kinda hard to close to one, talk some of my real life stuff. I don't know how to view ppl characteristic. I don't even dare to have some best friend because I do not have courage to mingle with them. Even thought I look like, "answer always in my mind." But no, hell wrong... I just use this kind of face to protect from being bully or hurt. But ever since high school, I get to know some or maybe 2-3 best friends. I felt myself lucky enough because I still got them. I use to talk alot of my personal stuff, whenever I get hurt I will give them a call. We gather out like usual, share information. Somehow, after *school* I mean graduated, I more focus into my career. I am a person very stick to career. If something between career with relationship comes in a shot. Career will definitely come first then only will set up my relationship status. Meanwhile, I learned a lesson and told me that bestie cant work together permanently. It will ruined the relationship.
Last time, I used to be a shopaholic and I can't believe I can work non-stop and nearly forget that. I don't like to talk others shit behind them but if you are the one I care, I will definitely tell you something about that person so that you could avoid them. Whatever I know, I will tell you that's all. This is the way I protect my friend, but if it's not a proper way, please tell me. Because I am very sure different people have their different kind of protection. If you know me, you will definitely know this is who I am. If you been working with me before, then you will know I treat friends in a company is totally different manner because we should understand between work and friend. While working, we mingle around with many many kind of characteristic. You cant *touch their mind, so we should always beware of *small people. If you do not own a strong personality, you will definitely get down cause in this industry, everyone are so scary including others describe me like that as well. If we do not own a mature thinking, we should really need more time of progression such as in college, classes and with school friends. This process could slowly bring us up.
It is so cruel to say, this world is not perfect. Unfortunately, everything back to zero. Sometimes, I do really love to share moral value with friends because it is amazing to talk positive stuff. But whenever my friend get hurt, I will hate the person who did like that to them. Honestly, I am kinda sensitive person especially someone told me that my best friend talk whatever shit about me but I will believe it wether they really talk or not. That is my weakness. Although I look strong but actually I am very weak and more into emotion. I am a person whom get cried easily. In the other hand, I just wanted to tell that I appreciate my friend very much.

March 14 '11

2011-03-14T02:27:00.000-07:00

Let's talk about my current lifestyle going on. I'm currently just started my first day college and get to know alot of friends there especially those with friendly personalities and open-minded person. Feel such lucky to know this bunches of friends ;D
Well, college life was fun and fun! U know what? I'm actually wonder to join college since long time ago just some issue that took me so long....about a year only start my Diploma. Cant blame anyone actually cause sometimes it just a fate or some *GOD arrangement IDK...
And yes, finally.... within the year that holding and keeping me freeze from college, I'm actually working on a company which is Furniture Industry. I have step into the industry line and I started to explore alot of interesting stuff in there. I adapt myself over there and learned alot. Basicly it helps me alot on my Programmes that I taking now... I've made the decision last month and now my new life begin. I can see my bright future infront of me. I have no any regret and I felt great on this decision. Although some of ppl around me not really support me to step into college but guess what, I wont give up easily. I always believe that there's a noble man with me every time I face problem or difficult situation.
That day, I went to Penang with my coll. I'm the only female with 3 male, am not trying to dare myself to follow them just that it is really secure being with them. *Honestly. The trip was bored abit when the time being in my other company branches at Penang. Cause my boss went there to discuss his new plan of something. So, whenever he went to each branches it took about 4-5hours. So, I just sat there nothing to do~ He felt paiseh too... so he bring me to eat Penang nice food and the view, alot~

The Penang Bridge
-It's amazing, idk why I felt excited when pass by the bridge... Maybe there's a familiar feeling cause I went here before since young young ago...
Gain back the feeling is a good though actually. To refresh back those memories..... especially with family's and friend's!

The best part is always the night life for me. I like to enjoy night life, especially experience those ppl who drink, dance, smoke, chat and the laughter. It is quite weird but I like.
The night view is nice, the weather, the lighting.....
At Penang, the most interesting part was staying the Hotel which opposite the sea! I stay a regular hotel room alone. Well, it is my first time staying in a hotel alone, nice feeling too ;D Although I couldn't view the sea after woke up but I can feel that I've already connected to the sea... The feeling is damn nice! The weather isn't bad compare in KL. Suppose to go MOIS but it under renovation... and we went to the white building... not much ppl but when we go in, more n more ppl come too... we bought fortune for the company :P

I hope to go there again on April.... ;)

G6!

2011-02-05T21:54:00.000-08:00

I still remember last time I use to get a kind of sickness and name as 'SNAKE'.... recently my neck grow a few pimple and pop out on the same place that I used to have the snake. I'm kinda abit worry that I will get it again. I should take an early action on this kind of symptom.... I dun wanna get it again, so suffer and I still remember that I pass the difficult situation with someone that taking care of me until it cured. This time, if I really get it *touch wood* I will be passing it alone :'( I must drink ton of water and avoid those cny junk food, all are delicious and I couldn't had it anymore....
This few day, I am planning to do something. Something that out of my mind. Something that my friend would think I'm insane. But ya, just planning and thinking is that worth to do? Another 2 days, I will start to work again. Kinda exciting cause I am really really enjoying working and I miss the environment. Many different kind of ages group together and share many stories....
Yesterday went to G6.... feeling so special cause I've been there for 3rd time, every time went there got certain reason. I do enjoyed. Honestly, the 2days before CNY I already start to drink till today. Many ppl ask me why I want to drink non-stop... because of happy. Hehe... will stop once I start work.

Share my opinion ;)

2011-02-05T04:46:00.000-08:00

This 2011 year hairstyle trend!
Medium length + bangs
Long length + bangs

With bangs are trend. Thinking to get a bangs but not everyone suit it.
Look how awesome the hairstyle are!

bright hair colour should apply darker/smoky makeup especially on eyes
If doesn't apply, will look pale. It could make someone skin tone look more fair, but honestly this hair colour suit for fair skin. Wear bright clothes will look more attractive!

black hair make someone look very mature. Doesnt need to apply smoky type but if apply will look more sexy ;) But black hair without shiny, will look very very ugly!

Purple hair colour, must wear something that suit the hair colour. Awareness should have, to mix and match but mostly suit black/ dark clothes. Giving someone a trend feel and sexy. But caution not everyone suit this type of colour cause this colour can easily change someone outlook!

Sienz

2011-02-05T04:02:00.000-08:00

I've been noticed myself for very long, I found out that my skin is getting worse day by day. Today I went out to find beauty saloon, end up all over klang valley were closed. I tried to search everywhere hoping that at least 1 shop I can found but no.... so lastly I went back home to recharge my energy. I feel very stupid cause I knew that every place sure closed but I still dunwan to accept the fact as I facing mirror everyday, every hour .... I feel like going to cry, why my skin will become like that :'( My eyebrow, eyebags, skin, lips etc look like shit! Feel like going for surgery so badly. I always try to accept the fact..... but end up hating myself because of my personalities.... I always try to improve certain thing that I mind. I dont like being so outdated. Although I spend my every second in my working place but I do always search every happening things outside so that I can get to know what happen outside. I loves fashion, makeup, entertainment etc stuff! I will hate myself whenever I missed out something that I dont know. Everyone around me knows well of my personalities, I am a person who hate to lose always rush to be the number 1.... and this reason makes me lost many friends. Ya, I know it very well too... But it is true. I hate myself to giving up easily. I always force myself to do and try everything although dangerous. I love challenge. That is why, that women ask me to improve and try to change my bad habit. I am trying to change...... It is not easy to change bad habit. Bad thing is easy to learn, good thing rarely to learn. So, why human always did mistake... But if individual has a strong personalities wont get bad easily.
Well, cny is slowly passing day by day.... crush on valentines too. I wonder what kind of situation will my valentines be? Izzit worth for me to crave that day to arrive? Dont really dare to imagine.... KL became a dead city as well...
Yesterday 3am went out for a short road ride... Very silent and bored like hell! All the places closed even mamak closed just like everyone win lottery no need to stall anymore.... ishhh... Sometimes do craving for CNY to arrive but when it comes, honestly just craving for 1 half day. Another day will started to born mushroom... Boring! I want immediately start work.... lastly, the same words I would like to say I enjoy working, please arrive soon........

2011!!

2011-02-03T23:47:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I do really talk alot of nonsense but what for I need to keep secret in ma own blog? The purpose to blog is to write about my daily lifestyle and sometimes is just to spread feelings... Always, I wanted to speak out my feelings to someone but I cant find someone to talk to. So, this little secret place is the best place for me to note down everything... Also, when I try to review back all the notes that I noted down, I felt funny and even laugh at myself as those historical happened thing I tot I was really funny and so stupid. When I look at the back, I feel like gonna slap my face to waken up myself. Very weird huh.... So what if I talk all this nonsense? This is my freedom, what I write or say is non of your stupid asshole bussiness.
Well, the mainly is.... I love being here right now. Typing non stop even I dont really know what am I typing but I love this kind of feeling.... XD
Let's talk a liltle bit about my lifestyle. My life was really happening.... Happened quite alot of wonderful and exciting stuff. It included love, politic, relationship, friendship, etc. Among us, different kind of characteristic. We do not know what they will think about us, today being good to u, tml act cool like dont know who u are. Wtf! But I know your personalities, so I dont really want to complain or try to change you. Just accept it, cause in the line of friendship there's too much of personalities yet it is fun to challenge with this kind of friend. I am trying to build strong in my personalities. A women gv me a guideline, she try to teach me in certain manner. Slowly, I hope I can do it. Well, to be honest everyday I had alot of excitement stuff happened. I can say that all this while, I been having alot of alcohol. Not to admit that I am a alcoholic but I just wanted to relax my mind and the other reason were I try to involve myself in those political line. Bussinessman and women around me, everyday need to meet up with them in those place to social among each other. Well, it is quite complicated night life everynight. I do enjoy and doesn't feel bored with it although it repeated everyday. My friend become lesser and lesser. I do not hv plenty of time to meet up and chill out with them as my time mostly are in my career. I do admit that career is my major and important in my this age. I put alot of effort in there and hoping one day I could be promote as someone. *wink* The best part in my job was, I enjoy consult customer with my product knowledge and make friends with them. Handle many kind of management stuff. Enjoying and everyday face alot of different situation including laughters, tears, scary, exciting, stress, etc. It is a marathon, a very very long road to go... I din tot that 1 day I will giving up on it cause I slow run even my leg run out of energy. Soon, i will see the result. Wether it is bad or good, is not really important. The most important, ENJOY WORKING

学习

2010-12-06T00:04:00.000-08:00

我努力学习爱惜自己
学习对你和爱不再怀疑

这课题也许太不容易
爱上你先要学会
如何真心爱自己
不需要太多甜言蜜语
在这里要你听见
我内心深处的声音

在我过去的小时候
妈妈曾这么对我说
勇敢的背后
总是藏着太多害怕和颤抖
放我的心在你手中
千万别松开你的手
只是怕你不珍惜掉头就走

曾经倔强任性的我
学不会对爱要包容
是你的温柔
教会我一切都用心去感受

看看世界
世界多么大
让我再次感受到
你的灵魂
不属于我

做人要大方
开心多点
自然就会有
精彩事情发生
Enjoying life is what I should care now

休息

2010-12-05T22:13:00.000-08:00

打了两天的仗，成绩还不错。今天可以再一次让我休息一下。。
好累，整个人都很轻,很抖。。
因为这两天都没吃任何东西。胃开始痛，不知道为什么就是吃不下任何东西.好辛苦啊。
肚子痛，整个晚上一直爬起来上厕所。隔天睡醒了，全身都很痛：（
好像下了一个咒呀！

休息休息
我要充回我的精神
再次打仗

下个月要得到满满饱饱的红包钱 ^^

静

2010-12-03T03:33:00.000-08:00

Leave the country

咳...走了一段的路,虽然九天的时间并不长...可是真的超累的..还没去机场的时候,觉得很兴奋,很期待,不能睡觉.等了六个小时的飞机,坐了五个小时的飞机,终于到了目的地.
咳....好累呀.觉得自己很笨...早知道就休息,睡一场的觉先.
第一天....不会很冷.
1st, 2nd & 3rd day-Shanghai Hi-13 Celsius / Lo- 9 Celsius
4th day-Hangzhou Hi-14 Celsius / Lo-8 Celsius
5th day-Wushen Hi-14 Celsius / Lo- 8 Celsius
6th day- Nanjing Hi-13 Celsius / Lo- 8 Celsius
7th day- Beijing Hi-8 Celsius / Lo- -2 Celsius
每一天五点半,六点半,七点起床
搞到身体不舒服,整身痛 :(
习惯了
每天morning call还没到就自动睡醒了
好像梦游呀

在中国的时候
真的一点黑圆圈都看不到
到了马来西亚才发现
真的超严重的
恐怕会吓倒人叻.所以我选泽了请多一天的假来好好补充一下...不然客人看到也被我吓跑.好多好多事情发生尤其是生活的精彩部分.怎么说起呢?其实也没什么想得起因为累坏咯.... 咳...回到来的感觉真棒..尤其是不需要再穿四五件的衣服和外套了! 我最讨厌整身包成一个馒头那样...walao,天气也一直更改...有时候太阳都没有真的超冷啊! 哎哟,最期待的就是shopping time了! 可是最不开心的是,买什么也好一定有许多的压力...为什么这么说呢，因为我老爸一直在那里*&%$^#^$&%....要买好多的souvenior呀!也要看个人的评为和适合才能买,可惜的是....男生的东西真难买!时间限定了,才一个小时,多的是女生的物品....真是难选呀!!!! 希望同事们会体谅体谅一些.... 我连买保养品价值78元都要被老爸骂一堂~咳~好压力哦! 旅行的路程也蛮辛苦的....不敢喝太多的水,天气已经很干燥了...所以皮肤也变的超难看...看到都心疼.

一天三餐,包括了十多样美食...十样也有六样好吃的。所以呀,吃个不停...终于慢慢发胖了!由于天气冷的关系,肚子一直在叫...好难控制啊!：（
值得的是,能吃到上海和各种各样地方的美食...最多回到来勤劳的减肥咯!
回到来,好多东西要做....首先当然是弄好那个不能看的样子,头发身体,等等...然后才慢慢整理东西和买回来的东西...买了十五件衣服,四支笔,保养品,snacks&饼干,两双鞋,一个包包...等等...全部都很喜欢,不舍得送给人:P哈哈哈哈...不过怎样都是要让给别人啦,拥有太多不是一件好事叻！:P
fuuu~最喜欢的地点就是"三国城"了...因为那里有好多演员-加演员,扮演曹操,刘备,等等的角色...真的好帅气哦!他们的故事也很精彩!加上，看到好多马子,好可爱啊~
在酒店反复的看看自己的样子,变得越来越残了....心好疼...看看我的双眼,超恐怖的....真的从来没看过自己这么的样子...所以我巴不得赶快弄好我的脸才处理别的事情...

回到来,也把头发染了自己一直以来最喜欢的发色...看到了,超满意的 :D (no picture)
也到Amway买了好多的保养品!给自己一点娱乐...现在完完全全放轻松了...最值得高兴的是我习惯了一个人的生活...不再去碰任何的爱情问题了!我享受自由的生活...
我也为我那么久以来都还没去做的事情,现在也开始去做咯...希望成功!
下一站: 韩国，香港

继续....

不再像以前了

2010-11-17T08:00:00.000-08:00

爱情也象一根藤

它温柔的把你缠绕

却让你在不知不觉间窒息

我是一个拿不起

也放不下的人

我承认自己的懦弱

爱了就不想轻易说再见

痛了也要让自己去坚持

知道自己这样看起来很傻

太多人都不相信这个世界还有爱情

你还在坚持什么?

还想去证明什么?

去让别人相信你还有真爱吗?

说真的..

我不知道、

不知道..

自己现在到底在做什么?

到底为了什么爱你?

爱情是一个人不能完成的

我们可以

一个人吃饭

一个人看电影

一个人散步

一个人逛街

一个人哭泣

一个人发呆

一个人旅行

一个人唱歌

可是只有爱情是不可以一个人的！

一个人的爱情

支不起两个人的天空

一个人的爱情

不可以让两个人幸福

我想..

真的是爱你

我也爱上了寂寞

我在你心里

只是寂寞时的一个影子罢了

而你在我的心里

却是永恒

深深的爱上了你

爱上你

却也爱上寂寞

傻瓜、我有多爱你..

你知道吗?

笨蛋

2010-11-17T07:00:00.000-08:00

过去的不再回来

回来的不再完美

如果不坚强

懦弱给谁看?

不是我们不合适

而是你们更适合

故事再美

结局还是再见

越容易得到的

越没人重视、珍惜

这就是生活

笨蛋，记住

不是所有人都是真心

所以、不要那么轻易的就去相信

我一直都会等你

唯一一个我不等你

因为我发现你的心根本没有装下我

爱

2010-11-17T06:47:00.000-08:00

因为我爱你

所以我知道强求的爱得不到任何结果…

因为我爱你

所以我会毫不犹豫的放开你的手…

因为我爱你

所以我希望你能够得到你想要的幸福…

因为我爱你

所以当你转身离去时

我会流着泪给你最真诚的祝福…

因为我爱你

所以我谢谢你给了我一次爱的机会…

因为我爱你

所以我深深的明白爱是一感受

即使痛苦

都会觉得幸福…

一个人游走在路上

看着来来回回的人群

耳边忽然回响起朋友问我的一句话…

“如果有一天你爱的人突然告诉你

他爱上了别人

你会怎样?”

‘放开他…’

这是我的回答…

听着我的答案

朋友接着问我…

“难道你就不想去坚持那份爱?”

呵呵…

如果真的会有那一天

‘坚持’我又何尝会不想…

试问

又有几个人能够如此潇洒的说放弃就放弃?

但是..

一味的坚持

是否就会等到自己想要的?

如果不行…

又何苦要让自越陷越深…

当爱你的人

爱上另一个人…

别傻傻的以为

能够用自己的天真

去唤回那不安的灵魂…

每一天

只能够一个人痴痴的等…

面对那受伤的另人心疼的眼神…

当等待痛苦的眼泪落下、倦了、累了…

你才会笑着对自己说：

当初又何苦逼着自己一个人，面对爱给的伤痕…

爱情是两个人的事

感情的付出

不是用一颗真心

就一定能够得到结果…

别傻傻的问自己到底应该怎么做

才能够维持长久不变的爱情…

总有一天

你会真正懂得

爱…

是自己给自己的伤痛…

给的伤痛

也就只有自己才能够真正解脱…

亲爱的

如果有一天

你对我说

你爱上了别人…

我会流着泪

笑着对你说‘分手’…

爱

是一种体会

即使心碎

都会觉得甜蜜…

爱

是一种经历

即使破碎

都会觉得美丽…

by Μακιγδ 藤井真清

2010-11-16T06:03:00.000-08:00

nothing gonna change my love

this song

replace my voice

to pass this msg to you

i know

whatever i says,

you will answer me

it is not important anymore

then

is that your new relationship is more important to you now?

you say you dun wan to know anything

dun wan to fall in love again

dun wan to waste time on love

dun wan to care half partner

want to live alone

everything

is lie

you lie toward me

because of her

well,

i understand

love couldn't be control by anyone

you step into her world

and you forget that you still in my bottom line

you forget 3years relationship

you forgot everything

just because of her

yes,

u're not wrong

u choose this path of way

dun ever look back again

i wave to u

told you to go against her

your front way is your right decision

please dun regret

please dun look back

i will wave whatever it is

cause you throw my heart to the sea

the sea is deep, large

before you throw

you should think twice

but at last

you choose to let go your hand

and i felt into

you made this decision

you cant find it anymore

you get it?

so, wish you good luck!

Remember,

is you throw my heart into the sea

is you choose to let go

is you bravely choose the other pathway

no turning back

and there is no anymore option for you

to choose back the pathway that u use to be

everything changed

even tho

i keen to replace bck our sweet memories

u rejected

and I just can wish you and her

sweet and happy FOREVER!

事实

2010-11-16T05:29:00.000-08:00

其实,
我宁愿不想知道事实....
德却让我看到了,我不像看见的事实...
你说,
她人在johor,其实是在puchong...
你和她没什么关系,可是你们却爱着对方
只是,因为我.....
才不能够那么快开始新的感情...

其实,
我很了解这种感觉
做第三者是不好过的...
也会比一般人更怕,更痛...
那我在这儿告诉你,
别怕...勇敢的接受他吧！

可是要答应我,
要对他好,关心他...
最重要是信任...

29/10,你们一起上云顶
也背着我一起上
我不想知道的,突然间.....
上天要让我知道.
你们是不是玩的很开心?
你和她在一起的时候,
有没有想到我?

(不重要了)

我没提出,
我也不想再闹了...

其实你并不是不爱她,
只是要准重我
才不要让我知道
不要那么快接受新的感情

说真的，
第三者
不一定错
是我自己保不住
我自己的男人
一不小心的
被别人抢走

是我自己没有把握
我承认
我勇敢的爱你
现在
也勇敢的
分开

我也想在这儿告诉你
如果你是因为寂寞而谈恋爱
那是错误

你们也选对的时间相遇
分享的事情
好多好多
虽然她对你说三年的感情
是不容易的
可是，
相信女的
说这句话时,
心是很痛的....
我说得对吗?

虽然你爱上谁,想着谁
和我一点关系也没有
只是
让我看到的
原来是她....

竟然你觉得你做的选择是对的,
那就勇敢的去做..

虽然我的心是觉得,
你是被她抢走..
可是如果你是爱我的,
怎样抢都抢不走的...
不是吗?

事实告诉我，
我要祝福你们
我不能再等你了
你的心有了她

我偷笑,心在哭
我会学习面对
学习了事实
外面世界很大

你们能相遇是种缘分
我和你只是
有缘无分

我会祝福你们...

來不及

2010-11-11T05:23:00.000-08:00

习惯一个人看戏

习惯一个人旅行

习惯一个人静静想你

想你现在在哪里

想你会为谁担心

想你是否已忘记

忘记那段爱情

忘记那颗泪滴

忘记了所有不该忘的回忆

我来不及将你的手紧紧握着

对你说我只想要我们能快乐

曾以为少了你的陪伴不算什么

怎么我微笑着心却是痛的

我来不及将记忆中的你消除了

我明白错过的从此难以复合

如果眼泪能够证明我是爱你的

那么重新选择是不是来不及了

干泪水

2010-11-09T06:47:00.000-08:00

一个人在我的小房间
猜不透你的心
突然间安慰了自己
想搽干我内心深处的泪水

这么我微笑着，心却是痛的
原来三个星期内的心情
能代替三年的感情

你决定要离开我
我尽量换留
你还是要离开我
你三年里所感受的
你坦白地告诉我
我理解，也没说什么
就当给彼此自由

我求你原谅
也没有用
我明白了
可是
我放不下我们三年的感情
我还是很爱你

可是你最后的选择
还是离开我

这真的是你内心的话吗？
你的心感内，
还有没有我的存在

我最难过
是笑着面对寂寞
当我想清楚所有事
后悔也没用

只有一个没变过的
我爱你这句话是真的

我一直告诉我自己，
就当这一次
爱错了
早一点解脱

可是我会从今天开始
从来我们的感情
给彼此一段时间
你会等我吗？

突然间回到一个人的生活
会不会不习惯
也是要试着去习惯
这是事实

不再是梦了

temptation

2010-10-27T20:38:00.000-07:00

I got a new Lacoste baby

love it so much yet it costly, i know i should save the money but i think my eyesight is more important i guess ;P

My life is starting to get busy.

I've taken part in english course and yoga dancing class.

I think I should cancel my yoga class cause I have no more time to fit into my timetable. No time for leisure or anything else. Have to focus on my studies and my sales target everyday.

The only english course took me for 1 year 4month(s) , so I better concentrate on all the task I should accomplished. I felt so tired but I cant give up, I always tell myself not to give up on the road that I choosen by myself.

My tiring life make me wants to treat myself better everyday. So, I decided to buy Herbalife next month! I aiming for many things actually. I want a slim body. I want to improve my english as well. I want to earn alot of money. I want to travel and I want to treat myself and all my family and friends nicely. Tiring, therefore, It does motivate me to get a better achievement.

However, I aiming myself for another 2years to accomplished all the task that I'm doing right now. I told myself that my dream is nearly me day by day. I'm hoping that one day come.

Last but not least, Shanghai trip gonna reach! Another 3 weeks I'll enjoy my lovely family trip and of course I need to prepare money to buy alot of stuff there! I heard the place is very very interesting and exciting. It is a branded place. My trip including Beijing, .... .... .... (i dont really remember all the place) The journey takes me nine days!

Excited!

And December...

It is a good month and a month that I am waiting it right now. I hope everything goes well and smooth. I'm waiting for the result....

Perhaps, it is a new beginning of my new life.

Do you know, I'm waiting for that day to come
I miss you like crazy.
I wanted to know your feelings too, can I?

another (L)ove

2010-10-16T07:38:00.000-07:00

I did some research

and

I found that

"....when you love someone, and you love them with your heart

It never disappears when you're apart.

And when you love someone , you've done all you can do

you just set them free

If that love was true, when you love someone

It will all come back to you..."

this sentences

make me feel so unsecured

but truth that I did like what the sentence meant

I did get some result

but...

someone around me

try to stop me

and told me not to do so

cause it is not worthily

I do imagine

if this situation suddenly change

there is no any benefits

among us

because this is third party appearance

i just can admit to myself

that i can

just let them continuously walk their destiny

till the last decision making

dont too rush

i still hv alot of time

on it

but the person around me trying to stop me

using a point

yes, u're right

but however it is still not feeling good to mind

i did not truly speak the fact

the time is still not suitable for me to speak out

once i heard,

i try to keep our distance away

not too care to do what i aint suppose to do

i felt struggling

nxt month should be a best month

for me to focus carefully

what i need to do on my nxt step

there is always

a sentence

"...in love, nobody wins, nobody loses, and nobody is punished;
we all just suffer the consequences...."

3rd party

2010-10-14T18:39:00.000-07:00

Define third party,
what does third party usually end up?

goodbye

2010-10-01T05:22:00.000-07:00

Broken heart

is the worst feelings in the world

why does love hurt so much?

It is always human nature

getting hurt is a part of life

I trying to accept the fact

and then trying to look inside myself to find the courage and strength needed to move on

One thing we have to learn is when one door close,

there's three more usually open.

Perhaps, this could allow us to build up strength and learnt from hurt

-I felt weird the other day. Cause everytime I tried to let go, you bring me up.
So, I don't know when I should let it go? Just let time prove. That's what I can say.
I wanted to tell you,
" あなたは、私が感じているのは同じ気持ちを持っているのですか？
私は私があなたに向かってこのような感じがします理由は多分あなたは自分の同僚として私を知って私は本当に結論が不可能であることが、私はそれが行くように最善を尽くします知っている知らない。私は私'veは戻って、特定の年を失われて何を感じていただき、ありがとうございます。その夜は、あなたと一緒にされて最高の夜でした。申し訳ありませんが、感謝"

this the the sentences that you will never ever know except I told you by myself

It gave me a strong feelings

2010-09-02T05:41:00.000-07:00

I've capture everything I did last two months. Why I'll just mention this two months is because I've been experience quite loads of thing in only 2 months! I know the actual of mankind attitude, it's amazing to discover their attitude. And the important thing is I learnt alot of skill from them. I did met alot of new friends and now we promised each other that we hv to contact each other oftenly. They are friendly and being with them is just like a family. Perhaps, every company should also hv this kind of feeling too. Maybe, I just love the feeling that surrounded by people. Also, sometimes I did hv some negative feelings which I wont write it here but however the best feeling would always more than X feeling! :P

I still remember the first day I step into their circular scopes, I was so nervous and dont know what I suppose to do and also hv a weird feeling. But when time flies, our bond of relationship getting better and better. We planned a karaoke session, trip to taiwan/hong kong which we alrdy promised each other we will go together on nxt year! :D , clubbing (this is the best memories that I cant forget, the environment gave me sense of relaxation and they are so funny! One of them keep performing the magic card & idk I just love the feeling) , and the most excited thing were the next day after club we woke up at 6-7am and headed to park for jogging! (this is the task that we hv to accomplished :P and also a deal) , actually there are still quite alot of things that we hv been thru.

And just a blink of eye, it's september. I tot that time would be enough for me after graduated but NO, after step out from high school you'll only know the path you're going is true or wrong. And this is the time for you to challenge your life. Thinking that how wonderful if I'm studying right now.

Well, I've make a call just now and it has let go my anger. Phew..
and the words I wanted to scream...
FINALLY!

part of my life

2010-08-28T03:15:00.000-07:00

Listening songs

suddenly miss the feeling

the love feeling

such a long time

although yes

we're in a relationship

but the feeling alrdy gone far apart from us

sometimes

it's amazing we're still in love

but it just like a glass

easily to be broken

but our status just like

the glass almost fell down and caught by us

I miss every part of journey we've been thru

only those songs could describe my feeling

although i look strong from outside

but actually I'm very weak!

I need protection and love

It's possible

to love me once again

but I feel warm and protective

whenever I being with my folk

only these feeling appear

just..

I hate lonely

opps!

2010-08-27T07:05:00.000-07:00

I've picked some of my free time to shop in a shopping complex. Actually not planning to buy anything but those female stuff had caught my attention so I couldn't resist to bring them home.
But apparently, It's real time to renew my skin care product & cosmetic. Chanel is my top stuff that I wanted in my shoplist. And of course, lipstick is my most favourite among all cosmetics so I can't miss the chance to choose one of it.

Is time to fight with the time again.
ciao

Mr.!

2010-07-28T05:40:00.002-07:00

Someone told me,
if you aint getting better life from this age
you'll deserve better on da age between 30-45
cuz there's rotation on this world.
U had a good life but u'll have a bad life experience too
and so called fatal life.

Mr, I want you to listen carefully
I've been watching you for very long
maybe there is a lil bit improvement, not much
I hope you could do better than this

I got a request
and I provide a period of 5 years time to capture everything
u did.

Hope this would be the right decision.

not likey alone

2010-07-28T05:11:00.000-07:00

Having meal alone
Shopping alone
Watching movie alone
Everything alone
I hate to be alone

To be truth, I cant stay alone without anyone
it such a boredom
Lonely is not to be spend in a day

that's why i keep on thinking non stop
what should i do
what activities i shall do to spend my day
although my 24hours is fully packed
but what i have used was 12hours on doing
NOTHING

I wish there's an investment about a robot which accompany u whenever u need it.
I wish that my life could be very surprising and extra-ordinary

IDK

2010-07-27T05:25:00.000-07:00

today i've asked myself a question:
what am i actually thinking?

everyday sitting in da corner and tot myself as a useless person
because i did nothing!
I just sat there and doing nothing.
yes maybe dreaming,thinking and idk nothing at all.
holly crap.
I told myself that this kind of lifestyle not belong to me.
I tot i have an official permanent job would be fun and busy but NO
it is not enough..
this kind of schedule is not suppose to be fill in my timetable
I want to be super duper busy and keep doing things not sitting at there
doing nothing to get pay.
There's something wrong and to be honest
it is so
BORING & USELESS

should provide time to move on
but when?
when is the right time?
IDK

Oh la-la!

2010-07-24T04:19:00.000-07:00

I've escaped for a moment to make sure I still have a blog account.
That's right, I'm here right here.
I've been kidnapped by workaholic lifestyle.
But now here I am.
Building a blog, a career and being successful takes hard work. It means you need to give up some free time and get busy doing things. Don't ever waste time cause time is golden. Sometimes I don't get enough time per day to do what I've been miss out.
Time flies, ever since I graduated from my high school.
Human changing everyday, as you watching a new born baby you could discover the baby slowly learn to crawl, walk, talk and speak. That's the process of growing up and learning. That's no different between us, we're learning everyday. Even we're on job, the truth is we are still learning how to keep on our live in working industries.
Learning could bring improvement.
Improvement could make us success on certain task.
We get scold is a right cause we learn from mistake. Sometimes we do not accept it but slowly we will remind it in our mind and changed it.

I love the way of changing to (+) not (-)
I love to (+) my daily lifestyle level and (-) my stress
I wanted to (-) my illness and get back (+) into my achievement
I hope every (-) could get hell away from me and (+) always stay with me
but...
no matter (+) or (-),
the decision is always your. The conclusion been made by yourself.
Regrets is the thing that you created by your own.
Just to make sure think before making something that regretful.
Pointless..
Charge up your brain (+)(+)(+) everyday to remind yourself that's no REGRET in your nervous system.

lovely weekend

2010-07-24T03:40:00.000-07:00

Just back home from Sushi King, but it isn't enough so my mum cook maggi mee for me. hehehe
Saturday suppose to be fun and relaxing day, I couldn't live without that. This weekend I enjoy my day with my girlfriends. However it is only few hour chilling together but yet it could tighten up our bond of relationship while we always meet each other everyday except some specific day. Before that, stella hang around jass home for a small 'haram' car practice xP hope it's gonna help her for upcoming car examination! good luck babe..

Too much photo we had taken but idk which 1 I should upload cz all look so wild just like 18pl xD
kidding jer..

I love the hat so much, it's a gift from my bf! :*

addicted pencil effect - coolzz

Learn to be strong?

2010-07-22T20:17:00.000-07:00

After a very long working day without rest, finally fall a sick. I thought that I could handle it very well but cant. I'm a human same like others whom need rest. Everyday I just sleep for 6 hours and now it makes me tired of being sick. Because I know sick is more tiring than work so I rather work but it couldn't helps. Everyday finish work, I hope to get a little bit time of leisure such as watching movie or any other stuff! Honestly I felt tired but however, I do not want to put that as my reason, I want to control myself to be stronger.
It is important to realize that I am sick, but how I feel about being sick is more important. I struggle every second and think about what I have been miss out, wondering how much longer I will have to be away from all this suffering day.
It's true that I felt lonely and a little bit of angry that everyone else is having fun, well working is fun too but depends on what kind of job and environment. I wish that I had someone beside to talk to about how miserable I feel. Teenagers aren't supposed to be that suffer right? Why I cant just be as normal as everyone does?
That's why I understand this sentences, "Life isn't fair".

Sick makes me realize about many important task.
Sick makes me realizes that what I have been through has made me look at life more seriously than my peers.
I know there is no going back. I hope that someday I will understand the reasons for my illness. I don't need to learn life lessons from this. I want to go the movies and parties on the weekends.

I always make myself to believe that all this shitty stuff will slowly disappear, just need some times. And I'm wondering Sept could get an official off day for me to have a trip with bf. Hope it's true, don't make me disappointed again.

-would it be nicer if I get back to a very darkie black hair?-

commit

2010-07-18T22:56:00.000-07:00

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现在的你，是过去的你所造的
未来的你，是现在的你所造的

希望现在的我能给自己未来有个好生活

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work hard, play hard!

2010-07-11T07:11:00.000-07:00

now, the first thing to share is yesterday we had quite fun time. Meet alot new friends of my bf friend's one of them look like zou lam! He is so funny and.....omg!

well, honestly i'm drunk. the next day i woke up is just like arriving the world of hell, headache, stomach ache, and wanna vomit. to be truth, yesterday all those liquor were suckx but i cant refuse not to drink cuz i have to be social social v my new friends lol

nothing special, time past tonight would be final world cup match and tml would be the beginning of the other week. Turn back, it's monday again a busy and traffic jam day a normal and usual day for me to start a new journey.

Now i'm official a permanent job lady. Permanent for maybe 4 months? xP The schedule would be manageable and do the same thing every weekdays. The reason why I accept the job is because I wanna earn my monthly income + payment for the tiger air exam it needs at least SGD4000! No choice... life is always full of surprise and excitement.

Have to work like hell for this four months! But, just enjoy working no harm cuz you will deserve the best if u put more effort.

enjoy the party!

2010-07-10T06:44:00.000-07:00

long time din crush into Maison

long time diden upload picture of me

look at that, getting more expand and round! means getting fat :(

hate my eating habits, totally out of control. Keep refill all the foods & beverages into my stomach. Imagine how ugly it is!

and my double-chin...ishhhh! chinese believe it is a sign of good luck but i dun trust it. well, i cant resolve the problem somehow.

and my arm...gonna faint soon! idk what happen to my menstrual cycle? I'm in a crucial stage in the development of growing up? Nah~ it cant be that problem and perhaps just blame myself to be that tuck on being greedily and enjoy every single dishes. And all the fats/oils gone to wrong parts it suppose to be at that chest part =X haiz...

Anyway back to the MAIN topic. I'm going to crush Maison soon I mean tonight! cuz my beloved bf celebrating his bday with his frenz... Great! I din prepared anything for him. Nvm, he is a very tolerant type of people he sure forgive me ;p who cares today not his official bday also! Still got time to prepare ahahahaha

who going to maison tonight? see u guys there

ciaozzzz

2010-07-07T22:37:00.001-07:00

what kind of job suitable for me? except cabin crew

office job as clerk/admin?

banker?

sales assistant?

no idea. all the payment is very low.

no choice, have to earn more $ to achieve my dream perhaps it is not my dream airline but no choice at all. I have no monthly income but i will try my best to earn it. Hope I have this ability to plan for my future. I know, dream cant be reality sometimes. So, we just have to do hard by action not by dreaming.

Theresa,

u know u can do it right? Don't ever give up.

U could be suffer for temporary not forever so, just put more effort on it and u'll deserve the best. Good luck girl! I know u can do it

world cup

2010-07-07T06:52:00.000-07:00

I started to addict on World cup football match recently maybe is because it's gonna end on this week. Kinda weird cause the whole world would be turn back to normal, I mean no more popular topic about world cup on facebook, blog, newspaper, etc. At first I couldn't accept it because my bf won't miss every single match that live in the middle of night. He will stood up from bed and keep an eye on the televisyen until the match ended. This make me worry about him every night you know, outside is very dangerous + many bad human.

I doesn't need to watch, I'll received the news everyday from my bf and let me know which team get into and which out of the match. But the feeling that you heard and experience by your own eye are totally different. Yet, I started to watch by my own eye of course with my bf companion. Yesterday was Aruguay vs Nertherland and I bet Nertherland win. Well, at last they won and my bf owe me a meal! how great it is. I wanna watch tonight match Germany vs Spain badly but something annoying me. I'm not gonna say it out but I do really hope I could watch it by tonight since world cup conduct once every 4 years at least I will watch the final match then I'll satisfied :D

bravo! U're out of my list

2010-07-06T08:37:00.000-07:00

Finally I understand that he could be very cocky after he get half of what he wanted. That's right, only half and this make him change damn alot.

I couldn't resist to use all these improper words but have to admit it that he is totally childish from the beginning I know him.

I am not trying to write out his name cause I don't wanna spoil his reputation but some of my friend alrdy knew it. Finally I could see his truth side, the negative personalities he has. The reason why I wrote it here is not to show how marvellous and proud of himself, just wanted to say that when the beginning I know him, he gave me a negative impression that make me not really like to being friend with him. Slowly he changed. Admit that the way he changed totally feels great like my bros who could talk to each other about everything.

After he get what he wanted, he started to lost his direction. I totally don't understand what makes him to become this asshole but well done I hate you once again.

I am really thankful that this person will dissapear on my friend's list step by step. It is not worth to continue our friendship anymore. Maybe not only me, all your friend started to leave you one by one. Or maybe only me, the one that not really important friend on your friend list.

I think this is the way you wanted, this is the plan that you made, this is the direction that you choose.

After all what I've done, I felt so happy and relax.

You're not qualified to judge people, you've no right to giving out points because you're just the same type as them, who you're judging. Don't you know that? I bet you won't ever know it unless you try to speak to yourself once, try to comprehend your own personalities.

Who likes you? No one.

Just accept it

2010-07-04T05:08:00.001-07:00

I do care what people say about me but I will forget about it very fast cause I don't want to keep all the bullshit in my brain. Well, if let say that's the truth that u told me I will accept it but I keep discover and keep search for the answer from all different kind of people about it. And I trust myself that there is no such thing happen on me. Only one word to describe 'Weird'. People are weird, actually people could be straight forward in different kind of situation. I am a straight forward person too. Straight forward have to use when there is related to live or death situation and also have to say it during a right time. This is what my teacher said to all the students.

When there was a time I need some encourage and motivation suddenly a huge stone drop on me and tell me not to be a fool. ( means he don't really know I need a support not a stamp words. )

Sometimes I will accept everything and mind myself to be better than that.

I accept what D said to me, I look like a kid.

JB

2010-07-03T06:08:00.000-07:00

Destination-Johor Bahru

Kinda tiring and relaxing day. Well, just skip the interview part I don't feel like to talk about that. After interview, back to the hotel, finished all the hygienic stuff and had chicken wings that we bought back to hotel room. Was enjoying our second dinner so called it as ( snacks) . We fall asleep after that, cant believe we can really sleep comfortably in da hotel. Never ever tried before to have such this wonderful night cause we slept until don't know what we're doing, one of our friend (Indah) came back from outside the person who opened the door for her is actually Mint but the other day she told me I am the one who opened and I really thought it was me but not too sure cause we both were totally soooo blur. We asked her to know the fact and Mint cant believe that actually she's the one who opened the door. Kinda funny. And she told me she woke up in the middle of night because I kicked her and some sort of funny sleeping attitude while spreading out some weird sound. OMG. How embarrassing it is xP

Alright, the conclusion is we slept till we cant recognize ourself, that's all xD

the next day, we woke up at 10am +, packed our luggage and ready for everything to check out. Shafeeq fetch us to pick Indahz from the interview, yea she pass until final round how wonderful it is. Later that, we went to City Square for our brunch.

Then, went to Danga Bay. Here's some pictures with our ugly look =X

Beach Club!

Mint ♥

Shafeeq Mint Indah

ShortyMe Mint

totally different without high heels

Came JB once in a lifetime, so I took so many weird photo of myself in different kind of situation and reminds me of my childhood lifestyle.

Lastly, three of us with different kind of suits!

have a great time with them.

K-day

2010-06-30T20:50:00.000-07:00

Today would be K-day for us. A joy place that brought me so far.

Woke up at 10.30am to prepared everything while waiting for the slowest princess in town so I took some pictures.

I chose to tide up all my hair in a shot and apply makeup so that I wont look like some sort of vampire escaped to shopping mall.

Wore a long sleeve top and long bottom.

No any accessories just earring.

Shoes? Slipper will does.

In fact, I just enjoying the simple and tidy day.

Ha, wasn't expecting to write it today about our private date but now I could freely called it as public day. It just like writing it somehow to proves to myself yes, I know I will not be feeling well to not blogging.

Know what, I love morning but every time I failed to woke up in the morning.

Morning, the magic of the eastern sun that seeps it's way into my room and the way that I casually soak up my warmth on my bed.

Morning, heard the hum of of the coffee pot, the sounds of it's stream as the pot fills up my mum cup and added the cream until the coffee turns golden.

summer bitch

2010-06-29T08:27:00.000-07:00

Summer, oh summer. I love it so.

same as blogging

blogging isn't about one day, one post, one event, one person, or even one lifetime.

It is about stories became history that goes all the way back to the day that been recorded.

This week Quotation:

"Sometimes you have to be a high-riding bitch to survive. Sometimes being a bitch is all a woman has to hold onto."

Inspiration and enthusiasm

2010-06-29T08:04:00.000-07:00

Inspiration nor enthusiasm just like everybody needs it

with a beautiful melody in a song that 12 hours night's so long

cause there is no guarantee that life is easy

there was proven way reflected towards

just like kaleidoscope colors

Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunity

to seize everything you ever wanted in one moment

would you capture it or just let it slip?

well of course I will choose to capture it

cause this opportunity comes only once in a lifetime

avoidance that frequent human hate!

2010-06-28T10:38:00.000-07:00

I wonder why

some human rather avoid a matter than to face it

they might think

the way they did could escape from certain arguement

well

maybe they will think abt this in their mind

but what about the opposite party

what do you think their feelings would be?

yes

think about it

you could escape once

but the opposite side still waiting for the answer

the answer that haven been accomplish

or maybe they had left

an unforgettable nightmare to the opposite side

the nail between the heart and the pain that

no one knows

I had bad temper about two hours ago

Yes, I am very stress and I did something that I hate too.

and guess what!?

I received punishment from god.

thanks for the illness, I'm official sick now!

treasure

2010-06-28T08:51:00.000-07:00

At first I thought that love would be very easy

so i put mind at ease without allowing the end.

Later that day, I just discovered that

love ain't simple and

I cant really love.

there are still dead set even I knew that was no ending

I do always believe love will be a miracle there

but all this just a lying words to myself

to keeping the distance

hurt wont be that much

I appreciate the love you gave to me

We laughed and time stopped the moment that we treasure

You let me grow up even the pain worthwhile

Even I had forgotten, I will still want to know from you

It's time

2010-06-27T08:26:00.000-07:00

Alright, checklist were made. I know it's too early cause the journey still hv 5 more days but I cant waitttt anymore! I scare i will forget this and that. This is a long way journey and we cant U-turn after the long long way to JB. Yes, I chosen Johor Bahru for interview. Destination is not the matter for me, as long as you being yourself and learn from mistake. This will be my second interview for MAS. The first time I entered final round which is Q&A, announcement in da office. I think I failed is because I was sooo nervous and did few mistake on the announcement. Also, my competitors are melay girl which pass thru the 3rd round with me in the same interaction room and same interviewers, they are very very strong competitors! And I know 1 of them passed the final interview. Well, this time I have to be well prepared and nervous should always put aside and it is my enemy! I hate you "nervous" :P

ALL documents (Important-Identity card & SPM true certificate)
Uniforms
High heels
Cosmetics
Hair dressing stuff
Handphone & charger
Fragrance
Wax & Spray
Toothbrush & cleansing form
Another pair of high heels & slipper
Shirts n pants
Underwear n bra =X
Lotion,shampoo,etc
Mouth spray
SMILE :)

(well, I think that's it right?? Have to re-double confirm again!)

I will bun up this hair - French twist

the hair in the picture look amazing, I couldn't bun this high and tidy :(

see.. failed aiksss

Of course, have to bring good luck with me along the interview! Luck is important. And with my family & friends support I wanted to bring the good news back from Johor of course every candidates want to did that too!

Well, luck luck come to me. All da best to myself and my friends who going to d interview!

Hope to have this opportunity to work for MAS

Sun(ny)-deyyy

2010-06-27T01:42:00.000-07:00

hohoho...

today is..... Sunday which I usually call it as family day. Sunday is my perfect day to be insane n gone wild!

Let the picture show u how we pass thru our weekends :) *peace*

this is the picture that my sista force me to post, she said this picture looks 100 percent insane n idiot! Cool, finally i can act wild looooooool pls

Now, here we are but without our daddy =X he do not know about this silly picture. That women with pinky shirt is my beloved mummy!!!!

Me and my sista gone wild

and and my sista say I look like chucky the killer doll =="

she's not ready yet. . . .

when we cough together

when we keeping our mouth shut together

when we punished by mummy together

when we manage our hairstyle together

and this is the picture i loveeeee... cool right!?

when we thinking about something together??

and when we having our crazy fun time together

well, she's my sista, my family, my priority!

lot's of kisses and hugs

enjoy Sun(ny) deyyyyy.

ciaoz

Satur.deyy

2010-06-26T07:23:00.000-07:00

Great, finally I can acted cool!

or do i look cool everytime? looooool

Great great GreaT

I have almost quite loads of photo taken within an hour, can imagine how wonderful it is. I think i shouldn't explain plenty of shitty stuff anymore just photos will prove everything and it can speakkkkk

feat. Jesse Mccartney Body Language

alright, guess who's that pretty little back belong to?

That thing you got behind you is amaaazing~

That's her..babe Stella

Let us show with our body language without talk =X

Ooo, that body's like music to my ear~

Move ya, move ya body language~

-okay sign- oh ya baby, u're too slow

when we're acting cool and stella idk acting funny??

Parlez vous francais?~

the way the way she get in on the floor~

Now, I dont speak Spanish, Japanese or French

But the way that body's talkin definitely make sense~

Konichiwa~

We have a dream, everyone does have their dream

a wish upon the star..

Shorty, let me whisper in your ear

tell you everything you wanna hear

you got my vote: Hottest Girl of the Year

Let's have a celebration, baby~

we're best friend ever, we talk/share/discuss/nag/laugh about everything!

we have video that feat the body language song but... idk how to edit so i'm not gonna post it :P

hope u guys enjoy it!

Thanks cousin!

2010-06-24T22:04:00.000-07:00

OMG! I received my cousin call this afternoon and she told me something that make me insane. I was so shock about that. It is not about she getting pregnant or marriage or win any lottery... Is about she spreading news for me! Is about MAS.

July gonna have interview for twice! First week gonna conduct at Penang and JB (know for couple days ago) And well, the most amazing part is they gonna conduct at KL at some where hotel around KL!

WOW! It was fantastic..

I am sooooooooo overload happy than just happy! Great..

as what I like to say, 'chances are always there'

I love you and MAS

2010-06-24T11:50:00.000-07:00

MY BLOG ALIVE!

Resident Evil Afterlife

2010-06-24T11:40:00.000-07:00

thumb up

Yes!

Finally after the last episode of Resident Evil now is time for new released, another new series 'Resident Evil Afterlife' .

Craving for this movie so much. She is so cooooolz

the most attractive part is the movie are now presenting the brand new 3D series!

wow.. it is an upcoming 3D science friction action horror film also categorized as a doomsday and zombie film.

people, let's just wait for 10 September 2010!

a nice movie is coming soon. Grab this chance to watch this amazing movie!

Movie day

2010-06-24T11:30:00.000-07:00

Had movie with Kenjj,

my boyfriend of course.

We watched 3D series of Toy Story 3. It is an amazing movie and also reminds me of my toys too! Opps..it was a long long time ago since that I was watching Toy Story 1 & 2. Izzit already more than few years? I guess it is!!

I love the character Woody, Buzz light year, Jessie and so on. The most unforgettable part is buzz speaking spanish and fall in love with jessie. Of course, overall the movie is fantastic!

childhood life is the most amazing part of my sweet memories, but as a teenage now I still able to watch Toy Story! how wonderful it is...

For those who havent watch, grab this chance to watch 3D series of Toy Story 3.

of course it is a high rank movie!

well, almost 3am now.

got to say hi to my bed , night

o-my-baby

2010-06-24T07:14:00.000-07:00

O-My-Baby

My mind is just MAS MAS MAS

showing a pity face to you...

so,

just give me a chance

please~

loooooool

of course you would see my effort and loyalty too. -another random post- xD

natural side

2010-06-23T23:53:00.000-07:00

Ooooh no..

everyday maintaining the same habit. Slept at 3am and wake at idk sometimes 12pm-2pm.

as usual, done all hygienics and had my brunch.

after done all these, nothing better to do!

so useless and tiring life...

I need an official permanent job. I believe I can did well and put effort on it no matter what.

Pray hard... MAS MAS MAS i want you!

well, this is my non-makeup photo. feel fresh and brave to take this photo but looks ugly too. who cares...

just being myself.. that's all :)

hmm... what happen to my fringe recently? not long nor short. but...

i like it! loooooooooool

got to go now. stay tuned people

idk what to do in this late night

2010-06-23T09:48:00.000-07:00

hello to 12am again.

-please ignore this lame post if u feels not so in the mood.-

alright,

since 10pm onwards there's no any of my friends on the line so i choose to blog. But if my friends does on line i dont even know what am i gonna say maybe i just feels boredom..

on this moment,

hungry sure will always do. I cant find anything to eat at home. I cant find any companion to have supper with me. I cant even wake my mum up to cook for me.

I know I'm useless cause idk how to cook except for simple dishes. I know it is a poor sign, I should learn but not this moment cause I have many stuffs need to catch up and cooking just put aside first.

Well,

this is my another excuse.

what distinguishes between asian and western food? however, i always prefer both of it or maybe western food is more higher percentage.

recently,

I addicted to western food so much and yet I love to have wine and liquor at night. This kind of lifestyle is the most preferable currently. But if only someone could accompany me.

felt so lonely.

because of the football match, i believe half of gf's bf will ignore their gf rather to watch the match. and that's it I am the one.

but actually is also not his fault. He choose to accompany me and sacrifice his football match but i refuse for his 'kindness' .

it is my fault too eventually.

by the way,

after all this long craps, my emotion turns to moderate. should thanks to blogger to provide a space for me to share.

and now is time to say hello to my bed.

night people.

stay tuned

2010-06-23T06:39:00.000-07:00

hello people, it's been awhile ever since my last post about my lifestyle with my besties.

feels great while shop with them cause we share the same taste and same idea too.

the only thing is, stella babe cant make it with us. nevermind..

chances are always there..

OMG! I spent quite numbers today

actually is only moderate amount.. hehex

and let's play guessing.. who am i dating today? It's easy...

or you cant clue it? and be as insane as me.

well, end guessing. Here it is, the one I dating with were Jass. Nothing much to say, that day was great. The first station we went to were Chez z hair saloon while we waiting for Mint haircut, we took plenty of photos!

taadaa.. she's one of my best friend ever :D

and now the silly's began...

the next station will be SHOPPING. All girls love it.

and guess who's the next person we dated!?

YES! That's her MINT the one who look like a dool, she's one of my best friend too.

they're actually best friend since idk standard 1? xP

while waiting for mint :)

Shop with them drive me insane, I love shopping with them, relax and good in giving ideas!

that's all for tonight!

morning people

2010-06-22T23:39:00.000-07:00

the first thing you'll do in the morning after u done every hygienics is....

BREAKFAST

i love Jacob's biscuit!

that's way too much of serving suggestion

either dip with tuna or any sauces

fill some tomatoes, cheese or whatever u like on top

or even dunk it with milo, milk, coffee or wheatmeal

well, nothing better to do than this :)

cheers~

everyone has no perfection just improvement

2010-06-22T08:47:00.000-07:00

Yes!

finally i broke the rules again...

but this time i cant deny and

seriously, life is too short to be spend doing things that drain you.

so, start to do what you like to do.

the main point is

identify what is unpleasant and be more creative in ways to make it more pleasant .

just to find out actually a happy life is about improvement not perfection

cause not everyone could be that perfect

just celebrate small steps of progress.

and yet, dont put limitations on yourself

magic and clues is always there

maybe

failure has to be an option in art and exploration because it's a leap of faith

but

"In whatever you are doing, failure is an option, but fear is not" - James Cameron

alertssssss

2010-06-21T22:23:00.000-07:00

take a deep breath for a

moment

It's not about doing it ALL, it's about doing it most.

If you are running around ragged then most likely you have too much going on.

Think through your priorities

and give up some of your non essential commitments.

That will free up more time and energy for the essentials

it's excited yet awful

2010-06-21T22:03:00.000-07:00

well, 'everything have to be fast'-this is my concept.

eventually i started to become weak.

but everytime i wanted to gv up,

chances would appears there i should bravely face on it and try my best to get it.

this time, no matter what

i will.

and literally i know what i want for myself; set a goal and target to make it better.

sometimes will be a little vague abt a stuff

but however

it is your future not mine

and why should i worry abt it so much

just one word 'friend'

but the most pathetic is

useless to describe.

what a stupid person am i

Aesop's Fables

2010-06-02T01:56:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I have analysis some meaningful story.
As everyone knows the story about "The Boy Who Cried Wolf"
Quotations from Aesop's Fables :
"You cannot believe a liar even when he tells the truth."

While instead of those, I've found out a story about "The Peacock And The Crane"
Quotations from Aesop's Fables:
"Looks aren't everything."

Some people know a little about everything, but nothing about anything.

reality?

2010-06-01T09:10:00.000-07:00

It's 12am in the middle of the post

what's a bit more of my life?

yes, that's right liquor!

first of all

not to deny ; is to admit that liquor is the best to cure my illness

does drinker or smoker consider bad?

some of them would say yes, but some would say it is a habits or maybe normal lifestyle that everyone are doing it right now.

well,

vodka is the most preferable :)

Hear your heart still crying

2010-05-25T09:22:00.001-07:00

Unexpected smile looks out of a good
I fell into bottomless ravine wrong step
Or think of your ridiculous confused
Needle stab in the heart blood flow has been just as note
Betrayed the happiness of love to take a bet
When will end once the feelings of exile
I want to stop the nomadic experience you return to nature to love
Wandering ended commitment would put it
Let me help you to tears
Do you understand I love shame
Strive to learn to forgive forgive the wrong
We love it in the middle unwilling
Hear your heart still crying
Forgotten less pain rate of spread
I really hope you can comprehend consciousness
Slowly healing wound and then coated with loved

This is not the right path

2010-05-21T08:12:00.000-07:00

Time passes too fast
The more it passes, the more annoyance existence
Ever since that time, It started to change my behaviour instead for making a good deed
But I live in hope that my journey and experience of grief might be a source of encouragement for others who unwillingly find themselves on the same path.
I actually found out that I had dead in 18 years old which with both of these characteristics I failed miserably.
Life doesn’t allow for spending too much time dwelling on these things. There are duties and obligations that need to be attended to and it becomes a matter of either sink or swim. It didn’t take long before I realised that while there might be a handful of close friends who allowed me time and grace, the world at large.

Just a short update

2010-04-14T10:11:00.000-07:00

Recently I felt very stressful. Many things bothering me, I don't know how to explain it but I hope this upcoming May will give me a clue to solve all the problem. Every time arrive home, I just wanted to wash my face and do some beauty treatment. I madly wanted to get KOSE cleansing product asap so that my skin won't get hurt again. I wanted to relax myself, I hope to stop thinking all those stuff which annoying me. I try to calm down myself too, sometimes I will write down so many things in a notebook to ensure what I'm actually thinking. But what I wrote is actually not what I wanted. wtf. My brain stuck with all those nonsense maybe half of it is important. Gosh! Please help me~~~

I try to mingle with people around me to get the truth answer that shows what I'm acting/doing. Sometimes I do really lost, I cant find my spirit as well. And my health started to become abnormal, my head and my stomach is very f pain, my emotion getting badly.

Hope someone could consult me, and give me some time to remove my careless mistake.

feedback is totally useful for me :)

2010-03-20T23:56:00.000-07:00

Somehow, I had given four opportunity to promote myself. My family, relatives proud of me that's the reason why I dun want to fail for tomorrow. I heard my magic person of mine said we success get into last interview is because we had pass the Appearance, Posture, Language, Team Spirit, Speeches, Voice, Gesture and so on. Definitely, I proud of myself too because I've did all the best and put effort into it. As long you has a positive mind and positive thinking you'll feel better even if you fail or pass. Obviously, I'm looking for more opportunity to sell myself in order to realize my dream. I went to interview for only one aim, being a successful cabin crew in the future and yet because of my family support, the more stress from them make me feel wanna pass immediately. I definite STRESS as my useful way to improve myself, at the same time I encourage myself to work hard and take feedback as my useful feedback. I don't mind letting ppl to talk about me, as long as you be yourself, you'll pass. I won't influent by ppl negative feedback, and yet it encourage me to be strong. This is the interpersonal skill I have. I learn from my mistake, I keep discover and ask my friends what kind of person am I, I love the feeling to learn something, I like to listen everyone talking because when ppl talking, u could learn language or communication skill. As my friend describe me as a quite person, but you'll be shock once I present and organise myself, because we do not need to be humble and once be yourself.
That's my comment about my lifestyle.

a short update

2010-03-13T22:29:00.000-08:00

Today I heard a song which totally gave me a sense of relaxation. Once I heard it, I could not think another things. Wow~ It's amazing! Well, talk a little bit about my life this few days. After I get my SPM result everything had set up, means the step had decide our future way. But somehow, I satisfied my result that could bring me to further which I aiming at the beginning. Now, everything is not important the most important thing now is stay FOCUS because this is my future. I know some of human will try to damage my dream that couldn't make me success but, don't forget I'm not the easy one to knock down. *Just BEWARE* The only way to success, put effort inside by yourself and others can no longer help you.

What I'm trying to say now, keep practice and keep discover just like what I do when I face my SPM last time. Every single thing that u learn could be useful in the future like making new friends and meeting all level of people.

Next week is my only chance to show to my parents that I can do it. Pls don't dissapointed them, I hate to broke my promise :'(

Stunned

2010-02-24T05:18:00.000-08:00

As long as you all know, I am a very straightforward person. But my straightforward is not slap words, is something like explanation for example if I don't like I will tell but with step by step as well. It is not easy to tell others because sometimes it probably would hurt someone and lastly you will be tough as the most rascal. *damn feeling* But somehow, rather than keep inside the heart I would spread it out. Oh ya, kinda miss Jass. She is the only one who know my feelings and I will get excited while chit-chating with her. There are many types of friends around you, but for me I have less friends which willing to listen to my extricate, affliction, pressure and etc.. Maybe it is not easy to have those friends whom really listening. But for my friends, I could be a good listener. I like to know my friends deeper and I like to view each of everyone personalities. Sometimes I do think this is not a good thing because it might harm and avoid making new friends. But the good thing is, I could know wether the person is good or bad so that I could protect myself. As my close friend know, I am the person who like to summaries them by just seeing thier reaction. Wonderful isn't it? But sometimes I try to ignore it and act dunno to keep myself trivial. You can just imagine how hard is it to retain the stabilise of friendship. But at least you could know the amazing part you playing with your friends. Let's talk a little about today, ya it's english class. But what I felt is not really good. I dissapointed my teacher and I did let myself down. I do really tried my best to achived a better result but really, at least I tried my best. I could really know how to elaborate sentences with typing or writing but not without speaking. So, I really should improve my public speaking as well. What I know is MAS has a public speaking stage but not at AA. So, I have to keep learning and keep discovering. I might be interview at MAS or maybe AA. This is my starter aiming, maybe I will aim higher when I really get experience thru AA and MAS. Well, talk about my working place. I did have fun in the place and also met so many types of friends. It's really awesome cause there are too much of different type of person. Some is really *&#%@# but more of them is friendly. *evil laugh* So, this upcoming sunday will be my last day which I could felt relax and concentrate to my studies. And the best part is, I have a working experience as a hostess which I will go for interview the air hostess job. Might be very useful right? *giggle smile* Wish I could get super duper great SPM result and the result wont dissapointed me. Strongly hope...

Regard by SY

A quiz that SO TRUE

2010-02-23T02:20:00.000-08:00

This afternoon, I had a quiz.
The result that shown below is So true! It is my personalities...Come have a look.

Dear Suet Yee, below are your Personality Tests result:

Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Your view on yourself:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are down-to-earth

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :People like you because you are so straightforward

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both si

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are a true romantic

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :When you are in love

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You will do anything

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Everything to keep your love true

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that pe

The seriousness of your love:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You like to flirt

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Behave seductively

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :The opposite sex finds this very attractive

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :That's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship

Your views on education:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Education is very important in life

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You want to study hard

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Learn as much as you can

The right job for you:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You have many goals

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Want to achieve as much as you can

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable e

How do you view success:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Nothing will stop you from trying

What are you most afraid of:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :You are concerned about your image

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :The way others see you

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :It's time for you to believe in who you are

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ :Not what you wear

Many question pop out!

2010-02-17T09:38:00.000-08:00

Many question pop out when I called all of my friends to club. Every single human asked me the same question even girls! *evil laugh*

Maybe when I stay with my VIP, I am a 100 percent good girl and now he back to hometown and it makes me gone wild! Just like a mirror with different attitude. Honestly, I forgot to have a feelings that a guy tried to woo me. Totally blank. When a guy chase a girl, the girl will have lot's of feelings, maybe shy, annoying, mad, etc... This few day I had an admire. I had the feelings but yet I couldn't do that because I am not single. I just love the feelings for being admired but not the "love" feelings.

When I ask my friend to club, they will ask "What happen with u and your boyfriend?" and etc.... Haha! And I have to answer all. But, what I wanted to say is, I din break with my boyfriend and I still love him as usual. :)

Relaxing day

2010-02-17T03:51:00.001-08:00

Today went to Mv. Nothing special actually, just have a walk with my brother and chit chat... And we wore the same colour shirt which is in grey.

We look like couple or twins? Kinda match right? *laugh out loud*
We had Sushi Zanmai at The garden.

Not really much to say...just tired. Know what, I wore 6cm high heels while working as a hostess at Fullhouse. It is SO pain, want to look gorgeous rather than wear sandal. This is what I am... I not really like to wear sandal because I will look short without high heels. This few day, my leg haven cure but I still wear high heels no matter where I went. High heels is one of my important things.

Where to go tonight?? *headache*

Beer or alcohol?

2010-02-16T21:19:00.000-08:00

Admit to myself that this few day mad of liquor, alcohol, and beer. Went to Laundry on 15th the Monday and we had Heineken beer. Other than drinking beer, I hope to improve my drinking level. I wanted to handle myself so that I'm not easily get drunk.

*Before heading to Laundry*

Later on, my friend bring me to Library. The environment were good, but the problem is too warm. When I get into that place, I stood there for only a minute and started to sweat! gosh....

Then the next day, I met my friend at Ss2. We went to Jaya one for beer again. I din try HoeGarden before. Is my first time to try new beer! Taste better than carlsberg, heineken, etc... Totally fall in love with it. I had 2 pint and some snacks there. Really enjoying...

Maybe tonight decide to went there again. The environment is suitable for chit-chating with friends. And Thursday probably going to club with Jass, Stella, and lot's more! Tune in for more pictures.

ciao

A big day but not for me

2010-02-14T17:14:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was big day for every single chinese but not me, because I'm working. While working, get a big flu from there and keep on sneezing like hell cause I wore a big red and sexy dress with 6cm high heel. Ya, the dress, forget to mention. It's a gift from a chef, which is my friend in my work place. He gave me as a Valentine's gift. *thanks* And yet, I get cold and sore thoart. Such lucky I am, sick on new year now sick on chinese new year! But luckily my supervisor borrow me his top coat. Getting better alrdy but yet still sicking....

Today, I woke up at 8am ++ and felt very excited to click on the web and view Jass blog. *hehe* Because we had a conversation yesterday and chat the whole night. Although I'm sicking, but fun! I could speard out my bad feelings in my heart and now half of my sickness healed! thanks Jass!

to be continue.....

forget it...

2010-02-08T02:01:00.000-08:00

Today, I could make myself to forget everything about yesterday that is negative. I do not want to remember it again. Because it makes my heart so pain. The nail in my heart that taken out but still had to cure it. But it's alright, I will forget it as soon as possible. I know it's a job, sometimes hate sometimes enjoying the fun. I am very sure that I have to remember the joy and laughter that we made yesterday. I still remember it as a happy day dream. You know, ladies definitely more sensitive than anything else.

I hope that my current boss wont take it too serious. I dont know what to say anymore, just sorry. If I do anything wrong, speak wrong, or hurt your feelings or making craps just ignore it. I just wanted to tell the truth. Once again, sorry to make you scolded by others or make you disappointed or anything negative. But what feelings you had is what feelings we had...

By the way, I wanted to prepare for tomorrow. I hope I wont make myself disappointed again..
And another thing is, I wanted to rebond my hair. Is it okay? Hmm.... confusing.

Another six days.. not really excited actually. No one date me out, just work and a small reunion i think. Should be a normal day as usual for me....

Regard by SY.

about my job

2010-02-07T20:24:00.000-08:00

What's today? Just felt depressed. This time I felt unhappy on my part-timer job as a hostess. Kinda sad actually.

I dunno where to start my blogging today. It's more about my working period. Blogging is the best way to spread my feelings. Almost of my post is unhappy and sad feelings. But however, after post it I felt comfortable.

Well, let's start to write. Erm, today I went to my work place earlier about 11.30am. On that time, 64 customer reaches our cafe. It's really a huge number. Then, I try to lend a help which my working time start at 12pm. That time, I really dunno what to do. No any explaining about today job, no confirmation and yet I try to check out what I can help. On the same time, many customer arrive our main entrance and I have to tell them that there are no more seats available..... etc

Around 1pm, it's started like a war. Honestly, my assit. manager told us that there are 4 hostess. But what I see was only 3 hostess. Don't you really noticed that?

Well, that time a big group of family tell us that they just wanted to have a look inside the boutique. Then we just let them in. But I don't know why they asked our assit. manager that is there still any seat available for us? ...etc
Then, asit.manager came toward us and scold us. That time, I stunned and just knock my head and said sorry. I dunno anything about that and I get scold. My feelings down after that. But I tried to hold my feelings.

Last time, the first time I work at there. I have been told that my job as a hostess is to maintain ourself as a front liner at the main entrance. Ya, I definitely remember that. And yet, I still maintain my position. I maintain to stay at there and serve customer with the menu. But lastly, get scolded again!

He say we dun have teamwork. But actually, do you really find out who was the one no teamwork!? We maintain our team spirit. We help each other. But just one hostess not doing that. Do you realize? Do you keep your eye on this small matter?

Maybe, is you who manage this case. You manage her to stay inside to serve customer, order, bill or whatever. But, can you let us know what position she really is?

Dont you realize it? Everytime we thought that she is the same position as we do. (hostess) But why her name does not appear on the board? I thought what ever we do is what she do too. I was soooo confuse.

We had a brief too. You said we this and that... I don't mind, but half of it I do not agree. Because you said we no teamwork, we diden gave menu to customer, and so on.

I still remember, many of the customer write down thier number on the waiting list. We told them we will call them if there any seat available. That time, I calling the customer which I called just now and he came back without any seat. You asked me not to call customer anymore. Maybe you wanted to save the phone calls. But do you ask me before or tell me the reason why? If any customer came back and scold? ....etc... I really dont know what to do. I felt struggling.

But luckily I met my 2 friends which willing to comfort me. Actually we're not really happy in the beginning. But at last, we still end up with our laugher and smile. Because we work there, we should enjoy, and we wanted to end up with smiling not crying.

Hope one day everything could clear. To sacrified everything we done is not a revenge or anything. We just wanted to prove. that's all.

No hard feelings.

I will...

2010-02-05T23:38:00.000-08:00

Somehow, my heart still cant forget what had happen on my love relation.
Yesterday went to club at sanctuary. The main reason is very childish, I'm not going to say it here. I had really done a very stupid choice, and I think that this is really a damn nightmare.

I had many times had a feeling that was really bad. I wanted to end up our relationship. I wanted to had a new life without him. I wanted to change myself. And the worst thing is, I don't want him anymore. He is a very good man, I know I make a really crazy decision since now I had realized that actually I can't always hurt him and think all those negative things. And most of all, I know if one day we ended it, I will regret because I don't know how to appreciate some one that really good in condition.

Now, I really hope what I did to him was a nightmare. I know he don't mind that I hurt him. But I had a bad feelings. I felt sooooo sorry.

Honestly, I'm drunk yesterday. But somehow I still safely drive back to my home.
I met with my VIP too. Had a little argument. But end up with smile.

And some of my friends know that if I drunk, I will cry (like a baby).
Today end up with puffy eye. I hate my eye to be like that every time I had cried.

I know yesterday was a lesson for me, teaches me that actually my heart still love him very much. Every second I still standing there, my mind just him, just thinking of him. I also think that if something happen to me, he will appear in front and save me. Because I know we had a strong feelings. A feelings that finally make me know how actually our relationship shouldn't end.

I will always keep it in my heart as a lesson, a lesson that let me know that our relationship is actually much more fresh and lovely than everyday.

The very happy feelings now is thank god that give us a chance. Maybe it's not a gift from god, but he gave us a fate to know each other. And a fate that given, let us drawn the road our self and make sure we will appreciate it.

Countdown

2010-02-04T00:39:00.000-08:00

Yeah.. My babe Jass is coming back on 12nd Feb.
Countdown 8 days.
And we will gather out again! Wootz Wootz

Pick a song that I love..

2010-02-03T03:09:00.000-08:00

When I need you
I just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so wanna give you
It's only a heartbeat away

When I need love
I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night and day

Miles and miles of empty space in between us
The telephone can't take the place of your smile
But you know I won't be travelin' forever
It's cold out but hold out and do I like I do

When I need you
I just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so wanna give you babe
It's only a heartbeat away

It's not easy when the road is your driver
Honey that's a heavy load that we bear
But you know I won't be traveling a lifetime
It's cold out but hold out and do like I do

Oh, I need you

When I need love
I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night and day

When I need you
Just close my eyes
And you're right here by my side
Keeping me warm night and day

I just hold out my hands
I just hold out my hand
And I'm with you darlin'
Yes, I'm with you darlin'
All I wanna give you
It's only a heartbeat away

Oh I need you darling

the best mistake I ever made

2010-02-02T07:13:00.000-08:00

I made a best mistake.
On him.

I wanted to say, I have regretted and sorry.

On the other way, I felt happy.

Because it wasnt too late for me to apologize.
This is a fate.

A fate that make us know how important, how deep our relation was, how long our journey gone through.

Our relation is like a puzzle, more than a billion puzzle that make us finally done as a perfect one.

Our relation is like a draw, a piece of paper drawn with pencil without an eraser.
We actually cant erase what we had did. But on the same time, we could draw a new one, to satisfied a new us and a new life.
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.
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that's it.
A true feelings from me.

About that girl

2010-02-01T06:47:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time, a girl whom slightly agree on everything that she did. That little girl now had growth up. She knew everything happen right now is an aim for her.

That girl currently love her life now as an extra ordinary person whom has a lot of friends surrounding her. She like to have challenging activities and challengers.

Although she have a challenger, but she still support and choose her challenger because she knew that she had qualification. Although she accept her but she wont give up on herself too. At least she could satisfied on her improving.

She felt happy that she have bunches of girlfriend and her boyfriend whom take care and support her so well. Once she think what she did to her boyfriend, she will cry because she know that she had regretted on what she did even though it was a small matter.

On the same time, she hope to make people satisfied themself with her moral value. She wanted to build a happy family because she felt that her family was not really warm and lovely compare with others, but she always love them on every attitude and behaviour they did to that girl. She hate others saying her family issues, she wanted to protect them.

Now, she become more stronger to face the fact. That girl is an independence and strong personalities, but sometimes her heart will felt soft and kinda pity others. Not humbling but showing others that she is not a cruel and unable to socializing person. If you know this girl better, you will know that actually she is not as bad as you seen from outer. As she too strong, she become hard to close each other, but at least try, try to know her well. You can know that she actually has positive attitude.

At least you will know she is not as bad as other said.

I would talk about that girl because...

that girl actually was the same person whom typing this post now...that's me.

1st time shoting

2010-01-27T07:36:00.000-08:00

Now everyone of you can see my group B colleagues. I'm not showing off here, don't think negatively everytime, duh. Okay, all of them were been chosen for the TV shooting on 27th January included me. This experience might be a good starting for us. We can learnt many things thru this experience although we just sat there for 30 minutes. But, it's really nice to had fun together.

Before the camera man come, we took some pictures together. Too much of them, so I just upload few. lolx..

After the shooting, bunches of us head to Sunway Pyramid Redbox. One word FUN.

Hope that the upcoming day, we could gather out together again. The feeling were just like graduated day :) This is my most precious memories through the classes.

And lastly, the picture that I like the most is 3 of us. I believe that this were our first time taking picture together. Only three of us. Although it seems abit -ugly- but I just like it.

That day, all of us had heavy makeup, some of us tied up french twist, almost all of us wore in white shirts and black skirt, all of us look gorgeous with makeup. Definitely, all of us should be like that when we successfully achieved of dream job. All of us being there have the same dream, same goal, same aim. We could see all of our strong feeling to achieve what we wanted.

Everytime, we learnt from our mistake. We did alot of practicing. Just one aim. I know one day others could know our effort.

End up with our picture then :)

Tuesday, 26th Jan

2010-01-26T06:43:00.000-08:00

I've been a little depressed lately. And I've been asking myself hundreds of questions that I doubt anyone has answers to. I have no idea why I become more lazier than every day.

I felt tired. And I got really pissed because what I did is just an illusion.

I guess lately I've been kind of depressed. Well actually, just really sad. I have no idea why. It's like a sad sort. Honestly, I'm usually quite a happy person.

Well, what I can do is just talk to my closer friend, might be my VIP. He told me that no matter what I should always feel loved and he will always love me immensely no matter what. That almost did make me cry.

And now have to go and be social.

just a little bit about my lifestyle.

2010-01-21T21:46:00.000-08:00

Here I am now, just woke up and do my homework. But, I still cant complete all the homework. Which are CV, and resume I just did it half way. I still remember yesterday went to 1utama, had a movie (Legion) and had a little shopping. Before the movie, I went to pay my Maxis bill which cost me RM187 and had my dinner at there. After that, while walking to the shop, there are many nice and pretty clothes and shirt, but too bad I used all my money in my wallet for the bill! So, I cant get it yesterday, but probably I will get it next week! I know I have to control myself even since I had bought many clothes for CNY. But just give me a last chance, I will stop acting spent thrift again! haha! Well, later on we had a small exercise on the basketball field. I wanted to maintain my weight and obtain my height. Because I wanted to get qualification to any airline.

And yesterday class was fun. Title of the day were "Invention of 2010". Well, we really did our best to present our invention which invent a Triple Decker Train (TDT). We chosen this because we had come out with many points from this invention. Kinda felt relax with this group. I like being with them because they are funny, friendly and strong team player. What a nice team member they are.

What about today? Ya, the title of the day are "introducing partner"

As a friend...

2010-01-20T06:07:00.000-08:00

Today I was so so disappointed.
You send this to me:

i know my english is sososo poor...and i so sorry for today or not only today.i will improve faster,wont be like that again.now i think that past and i dont wan to think about it already.dont toss me down,please pull me up...and that was hurt just like other say to you:( that feeling was so bad...

And I replied:

Not this case, is teacher give second chance to u, but you still cant do it well, at first i really think your english is okay and better than other, but I dunno why your english is getting "worse". I really dunno what's wrong with you. As your friend, I really not hoping to see you like this and not going to advice you. As a friend, we really need to advice each other so that we can know our mistake. Other ppl say me, is not about this thing it is about improving. You're not improving. I hope to see you improving, but you din do it. I was like so dissapointed...
It's not about past or haven past, it's about how you care other people say about you. If you don't even care other people advices, I'm sure you wont improve anything. It's real because I care what other's say about me.

Ya, maybe other people not related on this situation will think that I was so bad, like scolding people, or etc. But, let me tell you the truth, if this thing happen on you, you will have the same feeling as I do. Not joking. We are friend since form1, I know her well than anyone else. I know her personalities, and how improving she did. But, most of the time I gave too much chance to her, whatever she did, I will support her, whatever she did wrong, I will advice her and now make her needs me so much. I thought that every time she did a mistake, she will face it and make sure she will not do it again. It was like, so many times... But every time I did not see any improving, I thought that I "use" to say other people which definitely talking about her, then she will changed. But what I tried to do, is useless. At the beginning, I heard other people said that her english is good than some people. But, after we sat for the class I knew that her english were even worse. I do not know how to improve "you". You really need to depends on yourself not me. Like in the class, introducing yourself, it's like so simple, you think what you want to say and tell others about it and not to ask me "what I should say" "Do I really need to say that" "Is this the way I have to say". You need to think, I also need to think, my job at there is not listening to what you wanted to say. I'm the same human as you do. You must be sure on what you really think it is, not giving the answer like "maybe" "not sure" "dont know". If you tell people that not really confirming answer, they will like "rather dont ask you" "talking to you like talking to the wall". That's why, my concept as being a human, I will really sure with my answer and not to scare what other response that they will give, I will change myself through my weakness, I will improve myself so that I wont let people look down, etc. As your friend, I really did my best to help you improve yourself. But what I see, is only dissappointed. You need to be well adaptable at anywhere any place, you need to be independence on making decision when your friends were not around, you need to take more attention toward your weakness but not into your strengthness. You should know what is your weakness, not everyone could hold you longer in this stage. Please, let me see you improve. I'm not hoping to see you let other pull you down. You should know how to stand up when you fall down.

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2010-01-17T09:28:00.000-08:00

Every time we had an argument, our relation will become more deeper. We could know each other more and make us easily to solve everything. Is you who changed my life, is you who bring lot's of happiness and care to me, is you who likely taught me everything/lessons, but on the same time is you who hurt me the most. I couldn't resist to think all the way I treated you, I couldn't make you to deserved it, in the end you still treat me as good as you do to your family.
We not really perfect in the relationship, we had argument and it makes me dream about it sometimes. I know that it's normal for couple arguing, for me, I can keep it in my heart very long. I thought it was just a dreams, but every time you make me become more stronger. Ever since I knew you, my life changed. And you do play an important roles in my life, if one day we're not couple anymore, will my life change? Do I willing to let it go? Will I regret?
I know I will regret, but for our own good, sometimes we should really need to learn how to let it go. Rather than one of them hurts.... I really love you. I admit that I am the one who end up with the break up words but you refuse and told me, I am the most important one in your life, I am the one who you merit to sacrifice, I am the one you care.
To continue a relationship between us, I let go myself with the selfish reason and promise to treat you the proper way, to guarantee have a better life, to ensure not to hurt you again, and to certify for our future. Sorry...

I'm fine in the beginning...

2010-01-15T10:41:00.000-08:00

It's me again and this time I'm not here to talk about my negative college life. I wanted to stop talking about negativing college life because I do not want to remember all the bullshit I've done.

Today in the middle of the night I wanted to blog about what I did for my Friday. Well, it's actually a normal and peaceful day for me. As usual, attend classes and have a break at home. Why it's so special about today is because I had a drink + dinner with my high school friends. We suppose to gather out for some self introduction practicing. At the end, we skipped the main topic and the reason is because we're too shy.

Through our conversation, I can know that absent were totally straight-forward person. It's a good interpersonal but it also hurt my feelings too :( never mind, I just keep myself not to remember it then it will be okay. Gosh, I hope that she wont angry me too because I talk about her. haha

Anyway, it's really nice to have a drink with them. Although we are not as friend as we know but we could talk without worries is already okay for me. Just brag a bit about myself. I'm kinda adaptable person too.

Additional, I had an argument with my vip. Kinda struggling because that was kinda non-stop arguing. Gosh, know what I told him? Kinda straight-forward too! He ask me is he more important or my friend? And I answered him, My friend. And another case is, I told him, if you ask me to choose wether money or relation more important, I will choose money. It's really hurting I know. But I do not know why I will spoke this way to him. Not childish, is realistic. Everytime we argue, I will surely hurt him so deep. And I do not know why I will change to another person every time we argue. Never mind.

I'm a person who can't just sit down accepting someone else’s accusation. Everything is so dramatic. Forgive and then forget, is this really works? I bet everyone is not this kind of person because it's easy to forgive but hard to forget. I just wanted to dig out everything in my heart, I had so many things to talk to but I dont know who can be the one to listen my problems.

Occasionally, I just wanted to heal myself asap.